Monday, March 28, 2016

Easter


As today is Easter, its always hard on our family. Easter falls on a different day every year, much like thanksgiving. 
Grandma passed on Easter of 2013. I still remember the day like it was yesterday. She had been battling illnesses for a while. She had just turned 92 and was in the hospital again. This time, for good.  The night before, Kaitlyn was spending the night with her dad. I had prepared her easter basket for when she came home easter morning. About 930ish in the morning, I was scrolling facebook, like I normally did. MY friend had posted a picture of her making some pinapple upside down cakes with her daughters. That instant, made me think of gram, only because she had been bugging me to make it for her.
A few minutes later, I got a phone call from her hospital where she was staying. They immediately asked for my dad. He was calm talking to the hospital. After a little while, he came and talked to everyone. Told us that Grandma had just passed. We were all heartbroken. 

My grandmother was my rock. She was always there for me.  When I was in high school, she had a stroke. (That’s part of the reason I gave up basketball).  After every important event, she would always tell me she wanted to see me do another. When I graduated high school, she said “Im gonna watch you graduate college”. Im very sad that she will never see me walk down the aisle to get married either. Kaitlyn misses her all the time. Even though shes been gone for 3 years, it still hurts.


Easter will never be the same again. 

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Hard days ...


Some days are harder than others. Today, I feel, it going to be a hard day.

 
Woke up around 350AM. Afraid that I had overslept my alarm as I had did on Monday. Or my #fitbit had died during the night and wouldn’t alarm me at 530AM.  So checking that I was in fact no late, I tried going back to sleep. No such luck. I checked my phone for a lil but. Finally fell asleep about 5 and was woken up at 530 by 2 alarms. Was so tired that I did eventually go back to sleep after the alarms. I was tired and had too much on my mind.
                My mom knows that I am usually up at a certain time to be outta the house at 645ish. I finally got up around 630. I was not feeling well. Had too much on my mind about what I had to do today. Mentally I had a list of what I had to do today. Mostly from what I was suppose to do yesterday. I was too tired to do it.
                So, here I am. At work. I got permits to enter and supplies to order, but the focus isn’t there. Its just one of those days where nothing is helping. The coffee I have, nope, not strong enough.
 

So, for today, here is what Im hoping to accomplish:
 
-clean room,
-fold and put away laundry
-gym