Weight Loss ... Never ending Battle

For years, Ive struggled with the never ending battle with my weight. Ive always been on the bigger side. Thats who I am.  But im tired of being big. Im tired of the constant struggle to look good in my own skin. 

In high school, my size was used to my advantage. I played basketball so it helped. AFter I stopped playing basketball, I hadnt thought about my size. I always knew I wanted to lose weight, Just didnt have the motivation. 

When I was in the process of graduating with my AA and going onto CSULB, I was under a lot of stress. That was the lowest I had ever been. I was happy with that weight. No. I wasnt happy how it came off but I wish I tried harder to maintain it. My lowest was 175. 

When I pregnant with Kaitlyn, I topped at 245. After I had her, I went down to 215. I thought at that weight.  I could lose it. The past 6 years, all I've done was do a roller coaster. All up and down. Personal stress makes it go down. But no one can have stress all the time. 

So here I am. Struggling with my weight. Yet Again. But this time, I want it to be different. I am turning 30 in less than 6 months and I want to look good. With the motivation of my friends and family, maybe this will be the year. 

30 Before 30

This year, I decided that I would make a list for my 30th birthday. Turning 30 is a big deal. I have been compliling this list for the past few weeks and I finally decided that I had the right things to do that were important to me. 

30 things before 30 list:

1. Get in shape
2. Learn to sew
3. Better @ Photoshop / Design
4. Decorate/ Creame Home Décor
5.  Start #365 Photochallenge
6. Read 30 books
7. Buy souvenirs for self and others
8. Take spontaneous trip
9. Send postcards
10. Take self portrait (once a month)
11. Participate in 5K
12. Host a bonfire
13. Read a classic novel
14. Start a personal saving fund
15. Start to print photos and frame them
16. Visit the Hollywood sign
17. Watch sunrise at beach
18. Take Kaitlyn to Knotts or Six flags
19. Write letter to self and open in 10 years
20. Start Journal
21. Go back to school
22. Have dinner with all besties
23. Learn to budget
24. Start portfolio of designs
25. Take a spa day
26. Take a class
27. Be a tourist for a day (LA, Hollywood, etc)
28. Take a Self- Beach Day
29. 2016 Money Challenge
30. Have a 30^th Birthday Party