Weight Loss ... Never ending Battle

For years, Ive struggled with the never ending battle with my weight. Ive always been on the bigger side. Thats who I am.  But im tired of being big. Im tired of the constant struggle to look good in my own skin. 

In high school, my size was used to my advantage. I played basketball so it helped. AFter I stopped playing basketball, I hadnt thought about my size. I always knew I wanted to lose weight, Just didnt have the motivation. 

When I was in the process of graduating with my AA and going onto CSULB, I was under a lot of stress. That was the lowest I had ever been. I was happy with that weight. No. I wasnt happy how it came off but I wish I tried harder to maintain it. My lowest was 175. 

When I pregnant with Kaitlyn, I topped at 245. After I had her, I went down to 215. I thought at that weight.  I could lose it. The past 6 years, all I've done was do a roller coaster. All up and down. Personal stress makes it go down. But no one can have stress all the time. 

So here I am. Struggling with my weight. Yet Again. But this time, I want it to be different. I am turning 30 in less than 6 months and I want to look good. With the motivation of my friends and family, maybe this will be the year.